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[20 Apr 2004|08:45pm]

candygirl17
[ mood | calm ]

As we lay on the pine needles
I turn my head to look at you.
You looked stunned by the beauty of the sky.
You turn to see my gaze and just smile that cute little grin you have
and put your arm around me like always.
Your embrace is so comforting, and warm
I feel like Im at home.

We sit by the fire and talk through the night.
Little giggles from me and huge smirks from you,
I wish this moment would last forever.
We fell asleep in each others arms that night.
I remember it.

Its been a year and a half now,
we're still going strong.
All the memories we have overflow in my mind,
in my photo albums and shoeboxes full of notes.

Everything you've ever said,
I will remember forever.
All the things we've done,
will always be in my life.

I love you
Always remember that.

Comments: tare me up.

...my fears come alive... [18 Jan 2004|08:05pm]

broken_halo7
[ mood | mellow ]

...hey, new here, just got me a LJ, although I have so many other journals, such as Blurty...but anywas...been writing lyrics for 2 years, friends say I sorda have a rare lyric writing ability, can make songs within a few minutes, but i don't really care, I writite at my own pace...I'm in a badn called Death and Rebirth, I'm the lead bassist...but anwyays, here is 1 of the latest songs I've written...

"going deep"

Walking on this road
hollow and alone
carrying a load
making presence known
break the silence
free your mind
show defience
yourself you'll soon find

*choir*
you're goin deep
and all you need to keep
is yourself

Crawling on the ground
broken and bruised
waiting to be found
but is misused
holding on tight
tryin' not to fly
but there shines the light
now it's time to say "good-bye"

*choir*

*bridge*
and after it all
you still go on
even after every fall
you're still not gone

*choir 2x*

Comments: tare me up.

[[::dont bother explaining angel::]] [29 Dec 2003|09:37pm]

cry_me_stars
[ mood | awake ]

hold me up-count the stars

There's so many things you don't know about me
The books that I read, the things that I watch
And it's not too unusual to ask my age
Or what's my favorite drink
And then the midnight shift arrives
Backing up the stars that cry your name
And you always say something gets in the way
That tears you inside
If I fall today, If I fall to break, Hold me up
I'm holding on just to feel dark shade
Then moving on to the next of the days
Now don't you feel like you've been here before
Or do you feel like you want it more
There's days like this when I need you now
To hold me up, to let me down
Because letting go is the easiest thing
When letting go is the only way
If I fall today
If I fall to break
Hold me up
If I fall today
To break

Comments: tare me up.

Sonnet [29 Dec 2003|08:45pm]

freakinfay
[ mood | drained ]

"Awaiting a Return"

Dull days linger...with others but alone
Musing on tired memories that grow frail
As I overturn rewind and make stale.
Waiting's all I have...boredom all I've known
You're my final piece. I lost you somewhere.
Fearing for a second I forgot you
I'd scrape my mind to find your residue,
It's all I have to know you're there.
Fingers catch your sparks- I know it is near!
Old thoughts past are left to die, new must strive.
Veins throb, heat swell...in ecstacy- not fear!
How tired I've become but how much I'll thrive
Now I breath to think soon you will be here.
Pleasant hurt but pain means that I'm alive.




It's a traditional love sonnet, rhyme scheme and all. Ten sylables on each line....count 'em if you feel the urge. ;)

-Fay

Comments: tare me up.

for the rain [03 Nov 2003|04:52pm]

liftedandlost
i see a shadow
in the mist of the night
it motions over here
this doesn't feel quite right
it says don't bother dear
as i come in the light
they say they hate this place
but sometimes everything is
alright and we sing

come alone in the dark
for a walk in the park
wish on stars, feel the rain
as it penetrates your heart
hope for silence, just the rain
sudden thunder heats the veins
live your life standing outside in the rain

be a spirit in the night
walk naked in the winter
through the snow and be cold
let your wounds bleed
let your scars shine brightly
just be proud, soaking wet
and forget
about the static in your hair

come alone in the dark
for a walk in the park
wish on stars, feel the rain
as it penetrates your heart
hope for silence, just the rain
sudden thunder heats the veins
live your life standing outside in the rain

hope it rains forever
so i can feel this way forever
calmly shiver gently quiver
feel the power of the night

and it rains all night
i feel alive for the first time
since the last time
when i hid inside the house
i watch the sun rise through the clouds
i cry a rainbow and hope its not a dream
that weather patterns change
for the better always better
and i go to bed at 7 am
growing wiser every day

come alone in the dark
for a walk in the park
wish on stars, feel the rain
as it penetrates your heart
hope for silence, just the rain
sudden thunder heats the veins
live your life standing outside in the rain
standing in the rain
living in the rain
wishing in the rain
for the rain
for the rain, for the rain
for the rain
Comments: tare me up.

[15 Sep 2003|11:53pm]

liftedandlost
yellow lines and flashing lights
burning cars and ashfault scraped
knees
bleeding heavily

i pass by i turn to see
what just happened right in front of me
but its plain to see and there's a
semi headed
straight
for
me

and i dream of leaving home
running off to the west coast
to the sun
for some
fun
i'll leave everything behind
throw away my coy disguise
be 10 again
in the woods again

its a car crash
not hard to see
that that semi totaled me
leaving mack
smack
on my forehead

and i dream of leaving home
running off to the west coast
to the sun
for some
fun
i'll leave everything behind
throw away my coy disguise
be 10 again
in the woods again

but here i am
on the road again
far from home again
blood spilt all around
now i finally draw a crowd

but i dream of leaving home
running off to the west coast
to the sun
just to run
i'll leave everything behind
throw away my coy diguse
be 10 again
in my woods again

its a car crash
not hard to see
that that semi totaled me
leaving mack
smack
on my forehead
.
Comments: tare me up.

[12 Sep 2003|12:31pm]
_glam
Please, do take this time to apologize
For the pain that you have caused will not so quickly become undone.
And the depth of hurt is far beyond your comprehension.
So, tell me you despise me
Explain, to me, the dreams you have where you cut my heart open
& marvel in the the destruction of the one thing that may have loved you.
Express your most private wish – in which I will lie forever starving for anything
Starving for you.
Sing me one of your songs with the lyrics inaudible underneath your heavy heartbeat
Say anything.
Say something.
Comments: tare me up.

[26 Jun 2003|02:33pm]

charlemoins
scene: after the tragedy, an early moment of peace following great confusion.

It may have been the wine.Collapse )
Comments: tare me up.

Poem [22 Jun 2003|08:12pm]

xxtaintedlovexx
[ mood | calm ]

"Razors are a girl's Best Friend"

Razors can come in handy
for pretty much anything.
They can give you wounds,
and open wounds
Cut your hair,
and rip and tear.
Slit your neck
With one gentle peck.
Cut your lip
if you don't slip.
Befriend your vein,
and give you sweet pain.
Pry open your skin;
The razor will always win.
You don't need diamonds
You don't need pearls
All you need is the love
from your sweet razor, girls.

<33

Comments: 11 torn outs - tare me up.

[04 Jun 2003|06:12pm]

ex_coastline671
If anyone here is interested, there is a project going down called Literary Architecture. Basically, it's a closed community that welcomes auditions by writers and poets. Entry must be approved, and each post must also be approved. There will be an annual, private publication of all of the approved entries posted to the community that will be available to it's members.

There is also the possibility of exposure to certain literary publications, depending on the progress of the project.

If you're interested, email your audition piece to lunaleise@livejournal.com (submit no more than 3 poems, and/or 2 short stories or chapters, do not link to a website, and include your LJ username).

(Note to community moderator: Please excuse me for "advirtising" in your community. If this post goes against any of the rules of the community, please delete the entry and accept my apology.)


Link: Literary Architecture
Comments: tare me up.

[04 Jun 2003|03:43pm]

revolt_n_riot
the names nay, uh im new here's a poem i wrote dont really have a title for it.

Bodies & bones of sentences,
Slaughtered by the words you say
wounded by syallables
toxicating lips of yours,
those doors of breath
and ignorance.
eating at your
frame of
reference.
Forlorn. and.
Feeble.
caught in the womb of your " truths"
a mind that once was yours
poisoned by misleading guidence
turned to what i now
ignore.
allow me to
get whats left of you
infatuated with what you were
before..
the non existant comes to exist unlike
words you've said.
acts of bliss can not replace
this dusk of you ive come to haste.
what ever happend to the dawn of you?
love over time loses its youth
embracing words over time lose embrace
words have lost importance-
dawn eventually fades into dusk.
Comments: tare me up.

[31 May 2003|09:59am]

darkportal
Why

Empty Jars, Losing Games, Sad Songs
Why God, Why?
Losing Games, Fires, Myself
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this Black horror?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of Myself
Like a James O'Barr character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

Disappointments, Empty Jars, Death of Seasons
Why God, Why?
Myself, Death of Seasons, Sad Songs
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this Black disaster that is my life?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of Myself
Like a James O'Barr character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

What have I done to deserve this Black misery?
Surrounded on all sides with the Hell of Myself
Like a James O'Barr character, I'm wordy and alone
Why God, Why?

Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?
Why God, Why?
Comments: tare me up.

Letters to Nowhere [24 May 2003|04:25pm]

liftedandlost
i knew a girl who wore a rose
always pinned high upon her chest
first white then pink then crimson red
then red and red and red again

she never looked the other way
turned left then right then drove on straight
she never hears the thunder of her past

she writes a letter everyday
then mails it off to yesterday
with spiteful words to wave a sad goodbye

she always hears the footsteps of
her lover's stinking bloody tongue
it gives a swift answer to why she said goodbye

she left a message by the phone
for her lover to find, but when he came home
he knew he was already emptied dry

he felt the wind blow warmer when
he knew she was finished with him
he realized all he did was make her cry

now i noticed the second red
was merely white worn after when
the thorns had settled way deep down inside

she writes a letter everyday
then mails it off to yesterday
to tell him why she never said goodbye

he touched her in a fatal way
and made her feel good when he'd say
i'll always hold your head till you're asleep

the last piece of her story is
that he was never like she is
he saw her only through his beveled glass

she writes a letter twice a day
and delivers them to yesterday
writing day and day again
maybe she just wonders
if he'll ever be her friend
Comments: tare me up.

[05 May 2003|04:17pm]

charlemoins
little. yellow. poetry.Collapse )
Comments: tare me up.

jagged glass [30 Apr 2003|12:55am]

liftedandlost
he wishes for an answer
prays to god all day long
to erase his past of impropriety
he dreams of a family and a house
in colorado in the mountains
far away from all this heartache
he calls home

she yearns for something brighter
wishes daddy wouldn't fight her
wants a daughter
and an unperverted friend

we wonder why our roads are paved
with jagged bits of glass
and why the bottoms of our shoes
are worn down flat
and how a life so unbefitting
struck a soul such as myself
and when did i fall out
of mother's loving arms

he claims a life of sainthood
but he lives a life far from
never shaves and doesn't shower
while the garbage piles up

she wishes she had cancer
then at least there'd be an answer
for the numbing strength
of endless bottles
washing away her grief

we wonder why our roads are paved
with jagged bits of glass
and why the bottoms of our shoes
are worn down flat
and how a life so unbefitting
struck a soul such as myself
and when did we not hear
the phone ring anymore

how did a life so unbefitting
strike us in our youth
and why did we give in
and bite the noose

we follow paths
of cutting heartache
bath in pools of blood
and vainly wander aimlessy
while pain's emotions flood
Comments: tare me up.

Does Anyone Have A Passcode??? [20 Apr 2003|05:14pm]
boog_a_loo
[ mood | okay ]

Hey Everybody, I was just wondering if anybody had a livejournal passcode that I could have for a friend of mine. She writes so awesome poetry and would like a livejournal to write her poems down in it and she wants to join this community so if anybody would be so kind as to let me have one for her...I'd appreciate it so much! Thanks!

~Amy~

Comments: tare me up.

A Choice Without An Answer [08 Apr 2003|02:37pm]
boog_a_loo
[ mood | depressed ]

Scared, terrified,
sad, angry,
only silent tears fall.
No sound escapes my lips,
my mind has all the sound,
screaming at me from within.
I feel as though I'm losing my mind,
wandering into a darkened tunnel,
trapped within my own thoughts.
Screaming for them to go away,
to be free from my head.
How these thoughts have made me cry,
how they've hurt me deep in my heart and soul.
I cry now,
because of how I hurt,
the pain has caused me to think awful things.
I'm lost now,
traveling through life alone,
always alone.
Nobody ever by my side.
How fate has cheated me so,
from a family,
from friends,
from that special someone.
But maybe fate didn't cheat me,
maybe it was me,
I cheated myself from the life I deserve.
How horrible can I be?
I don't even deserve what I have,
Now I must suffer life with pain and tears,
or maybe I don't.
I have choices to change my future,
but my question to myself,
do I wish to have a future?
One simple choice,
will tell me the answer.

Comments: tare me up.

2 more songs... [26 Mar 2003|04:05pm]

darkportal
yes...i know...i've been posting a lot...deal with it...i like getting imput on my songs...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The Last Kiss

Do you remember
the last time we were together?
Will the next time I see you
last forever?
Why does this feel
like it has lasted for years?
How come I'm losing
all of these tears?

The last kiss
was so long ago.
I don't remember
but somehow I know...

Lives have passed
years have gone.
It's hard to believe
I've never been alone.
I feel your arms,
I feel your heart.
How can I feel these things
when we're so far apart?

The last kiss
was so long ago.
I don't remember
but somehow I know...

All i wan is to feel you
and be able to see.
See into your eyes
and you see into me.
I don't remember
but I will soon.
With you waiting
in your room.

The last kiss
was so long ago.
I don't remember
but somehow I know...

The last kiss
was so long ago.
I don't remember
but somehow I know...

But somehow...
...i know

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Take Me

Wild thoughts,
thinking free.
All I want
is you and me.
Forget all previous
obligations we need to attend.
Take me now
I don't want to pretend.

Take me
deep inside, deep into mistake.
Take me
for a ride, I don't want to fake...
ANYTHING!

Are you ready
for me this time.
If it wasn't for this
everything would be fine.
Look at us now
both thinking and wearing less.
Here is where past obligations
need to take the test.

Take me
deep inside, deep into regret.
Take me
for a ride, I don't want to forget...
ANYTHING!

Look at what
we've done here now.
Will the end come tomorrow?
Or was it all
just a mistake?
I don't want to fake...
ANYTHING!

Take me
deep inside, deep into mistake.
Take me
for a ride, I don't want to fake...
ANYTHING!

TAKE ME!
I DON'T WANT TO FAKE!
ANYTHING!
Comments: tare me up.

[15 Mar 2003|11:36am]

chronic_kiss143
Paradise
The palm that grew
Feet from the raging ripples.
To a giant, standing like a dandelion
Waiting to be blown away.

A stem wrapped in plastic-
Undesired support.
Capturing the phenomena of life
In a frame of death.

Bigger as time lapses,
More distance as you encroach
A life that no longer has future.
And you pass
Taking a Polaroid of the end-
Missing the middle
But, acknowledging a beginning-
Only to discard the entirety as a past memory.

But remember the reflective plastic
Subduing the out of control stems.
Comments: tare me up.

Introduction [23 Feb 2003|07:01pm]
boog_a_loo
[ mood | bouncy ]

Hey everybody...I'm new to the community and I would like to start off with a poem kinda introducing me and my feelings. So here it is...

*************************************************
Cold and Dead
Cold and dead inside,
burning from the internal fires of my mind.
My mind isn’t the only thing that’s burned,
but my heart is as well.
My heart is bruised and torn to pieces,
It’s been ripped into shreds,
tossed into a bottle of poison.
Now I’m cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead,
waiting for the day to join my coffin,
as it sits and waits for me,
hoping to be filled soon.
Although my heart has been shredded and bruised,
it wants to go on living,
it wants to try and get through hell,
and show everyone who I am.
Who I will be once I’m happy.
But that won’t be for a while,
right now I’m cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead,
facing life alone and lost in thoughts.
Lost and confused as to my purpose on the earth.
My purpose in my life has faded,
I don’t know what it is anymore,
because I fail at everything,
no matter what it is,
I fail.
I feel estrange from everyone I know,
so different from everything.
Uncommunicative, not wanting to let them in,
scared and helpless inside,
uncontrolled images and thoughts,
left alone to deal with them,
dwell upon them,
trying to cope with reality and what might be true.
I have no closeness to anybody,
no trust,
only imagination, which plays evil tricks on me.
I’m cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead,
I feel pitied for my emptiness and my pain.
I hate that pity,
I don’t need it, I need someone to help me through this.
But I have no more family,
I have no more friends,
I have no one because to my realization,
I’m a loner.
No one wants me,
no one cares,
maybe the devil,
but he just wants to corrupt me,
he wants to screw up my mind even more than it is,
he wants to turn me against everything good that I know.
But I won’t let him control me,
I am in control,
nobody will change me.
I won’t let them,
because I’m cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead,
that’s me and how I have been,
how I am now,
how I see myself in the future.
I can’t see myself as anything else.
Only cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead,
lost within my thoughts and now myself.
How will I ever get out?
How will I ever generate happiness?
How will I ever overcome my never ending depression?
I don’t know if I ever will be able to.
I’m alone now,
nothing seems to matter anymore,
I’m just cold and dead inside.
Cold and dead.

********************************************************
I hope you all liked it. It's my way of introducing myself to all of you. This is one of my poems that pretty much riped my heart a part to write. Thanks for reading everyone.

Comments: tare me up.

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